The awareness that I live with chronic cancer is something that I wake up to and go to sleep with every night. It is a new way of living in the world and sometimes it is a good thing and sometimes not such a good thing. I struggle with that almost every day. I wish that I could forget about it some days and at one time in the last few years I realized that I had begun to abuse alcohol to obliterate that awareness. But as the saying goes, “everywhere I go, there I am” and so everywhere I go the cancer goes with me. I’ve had to overcome that addiction and face each day with the awareness of this chronic disease that will likely kill me someday….if a bus doesn’t get me first!!!
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